Thank you and I love you

[Melinda the Ball Breaker]

 

     Hey you all.  I know it’s been awhile since I have been on. The last year has not been the best. At the start of the year I had a stroke. It happened when I was sleeping in the beginning of January. I woke up in the morning and I could not feel the left side of my body. A blood clot had moved to my brain when I was sleeping, causing me to have a stroke. After more tests then I can count, they were not able to figure out where it came from or why it happened. I lost part of my vision in both eyes, which over the last year has gotten better, but it will never be the same. My short term memory has been wrecked and I have a hard time remembering day to day things. My long term memory has also been affected, there are now chucks of my life that I can simply not remember anymore. I lost strength in the left side of my body and the right side I can no longer feel the difference between hot and cold. I could burn my arm and I wouldn’t even register it as pain. It has gotten better over this year with working out and physical therapy but the damage has already been done. I have gone back to a semi normal life despite all of this and I am grateful to be alive still.

     For the friendships I have built and the people I have talked to in this community is the reason I write this. I feel like I owe an explanation for my absence. I have shared many personal things with a lot of you. My wildest desires, my trauma, and some of my darkest secrets I have only told to some of the people in this community. Some of my most brutal ball busting session have come from ideas that I have gotten from chatting with people on this site. I have always been a ball breaker but the ideas and dirty little fantasies of talking to you guys is what turned me into a queen of nut busting, that is just a fact that refuse to deny. Your support and love for me over the years since I have become a member here has been essential to my thoughts on this wonderful fetish that we all enjoy. Some have shared their most personal fantasies with me. I have talked about ball busting and real life stuff with you people. I have started wars in the chat and spoke my most extreme thoughts and point of views on here. All I can say is thank you. I thank DVhour for making such a place that I don’t feel judged for sharing such thoughts no matter how extreme they may be (and yes, I still think all guys should be neutered, sorry but not sorry). Maybe it’s Karma, I don’t know. I do know that I love you all and I will always enjoy being part of this community. I have talked to some of you for hours into the wee hours of the night and I will never forget that.

  This isn’t a goodbye, so do not think that. I will always be a part of this community and I am always willing to share my feelings and thoughts on it. I may not be around as much but just know that I am still a queen, I still have the strength to break a pair of balls and smile about it (I have tested it, I still have the leg power to make you puke in a few kicks, trust me. Priorities you know).  I still plan on writing and sharing stories as long as I can gather my thoughts long enough to do so, it is still a process right now. On a serious note, I truly do love you all and I thank you for the years of letting me share the strangest and darkest part of me.  (On a ball busing note, yes I am very much trying to destroy those balls still). You guy make me feel like the goddess and queen that I know I am.

With sincere love, your Ball Breaking Queen,

Melinda xoxoxox

[NatWest]

"My short term memory has been wrecked and I have a hard time remembering day to day things." - Welcome to my world! Best wishes from the UK.

[MadisonGuy]

Oh no, I’m so sorry. Recovery after a stroke is very slow, but you will get better. Please let us know how you are progressing, there are lots of people on here who care about you.

[Lars V]

Best wishes from Sweden! I'll keep you in my thoughts and even pray a little for you, even if it might annoy our Lord.

Hang in there!

:-)

[NickCH]

Wishing you a speedy recovery Nutcracking Queen. Writing your messages are always a treat. I hope there will be many, many more on this site. 

[volcan51]

I wish you more recover, and thanks mel for the time you shared with the community, My best wishes for you

[Trent]

That's so sad to hear.  But your character and personality, as evidenced by your posts, show that you'll overcome this.  You're a strong and determined woman, and I know that in little time you'll be dancing again.  I wish you the best of luck, but I don't know that you need it.

[nick]

Wishing you the best in your recovery. Its been a pleasure (and quite a lot of pain, lol!) to get to know you over the years, and hopefully we continue to do that for many more. Glad to hear you've retained the ball breaking attitude, and skills! <3

[Hichi kuro]

Much love, your in my thoughts

[anthony white]

I never got to talk to you much on here but I'm really pulling for you miss.  Thank you for posting on here.

[Karate_Aaron]

I hope you continue to recover.  I have missed you being on here, and hope to see you here more often!