"I'm gonna rupture your balls..."

[Bblove]

I'm writing this lying in bed icing my balls. Please excuse any typos I'm writing on my phone. I've always had a fantasy of being tied up by a woman and told she's going to literally break my balls, rupture then, then proceed to do so with kicking and stomping in sneakers while ignoring my pleas for her to stop. More than that I get off on setting up that scenario and getting as close to it as I can while saving myself from actually having my balls destroyed. I've been using Seeking Arrangement to find busters ever since it was first mentioned on this board with a lot of success. And I've set up the scenario described above a few times and found women who say they're willing to rupture my balls, although usually they are just "willing" and don't seem excited by the prospect which kind of kills it. Obviously despite meeting some of these women I never went through with having my balls popped. More recently I met a 33 year old African American woman on SA who said she'd love to dominate me. When I told her about my fetish she was game. We began texting and arranged to meet at my place. At first she was telling me she was going to kick a field goal with my balls, that they would be swollen and braised and I'd better have ice handy. Then she told me she'd be handcuffing me. I brought up the idea of rupturing them and she was game. I drafted a consent form and waiver of liability allowing her to rupture my testicles (no that's not actually legal but I'm a lawyer and it looked very legit). We agreed that she would get $100 for kicking and stepping on my balls, and $250 for each testicle she ruptured to be paid after the deed was done. The agreement stated that I would be restrained and once cuffed I would not be permitted to revoke my consent, no matter what I said she was to proceed with rupturing my balls. Obviously she also had a nice cash incentive to do so, too. We were supposed to meet Monday, but I chickened out last minute and cancelled saying I had a work thing come up for the next day so couldn't have broken balls. She was not happy. So we arranged to meet today, Tuesday. We initially agreed she would just bust me and we'd make plans for when she would break my balls. But as the time of her arrival got closer I pushed the issue, telling her via text that my schedule was clear the rest of the week so tonight would be a good night to do it. She was non-responsive via text about what she planned to do. I had told her I had the waiver and bonus cash on hand (which I did). She arrived wearing a pair of pink and grey Nike Lunarlon, which I loved. She came in and I gave her the $100 and let her read over the contract that have her permission to rupture my balls and released her from any liability for doing so. She was satisfied and I signed. I was of course visibly nervous the entire time which she pointed out. But I assured her that's let of the thrill for me. She pulled out a pair of gun metal grey handcuffs, the real deal. I asked if she was gonna break my balls tonight, she said she didn't know. She had me lay on the floor on my back and cuffed my hands over my head to the leg of the coffee table (it has a base so I couldn't just lift the table to escape). She asked if I had anything to muffle my screams, and if people react to noise in my apartment. I had no gag, but told her my window unit air conditioner is very loud, she turned it in and said that would do. Then she began. She started out stepping on my crotch, then slammed her heel down on my balls. It hurt, the force was significant. Then she began kicking, hard, scary hard. Luckily most missed and hit my legs and butt. A few did connect, mostly with my left ball. I kept closing my legs and she kept yelling at me to open them, that she would kick harder if I didn't. I asked for a break and she said no. I said "please you're going to break them". She responded that I had asked for this, that she was going to break them, that she was going to rupture my balls. All the while she's prying my legs open and kicking me harder than I'm comfortable with, scaring the shit out of me. I begged, I said "please, it's too much, don't break them, I won't have balls anymore". She responded "why, you don't need them, you don't deserve them, why do you deserve balls?". I'm absolutely terrified at this point and my balls are throbbing, and she keeps kicking me. She pulls off my pants and keeps at it. I said "please I'll give you the extra money anyway just don't break them". She didn't care, she said she wanted to rupture my balls, that she liked the power. She kept kicking, prying my legs apart as I struggled to close them. Eventually I'm thinking this is it, I'm gonna lose my balls. I'm struggling saying anything I can to stall. As I did I started trying as hard as I could to pull my left hand through the cuffs. Eventually I slipped through and I jumped up. I said stop, no more. She stopped at this point. She asked if I was okay. I was and told her so. From there I did not want to be cuffed anymore. We ti d my balls up and put them on a thick book as I sat in the floor, she stepped, stood and stomped on my balls, yelling at me to "move your hands", "don't touch my shoe" and "put them back on the book". I hesitantly complied as she put all her weight on my balls momentarily time and again, and stomped on them. Eventually I finished. We stopped, and talked about the whole experience. She said she wasn't going to break my balls (not intentionally anyway), but she wanted to play into the scene for me. She did great. She said said she knew the contract wasn't valid too. She truly does enjoy being dominant, and she's considered being a pro Domme, but this was her first go at it. She said she definitely got off having that power over someone. It was intense to be in that situation, cuffed, on the round, being merciless kicked in the balls as I struggled to protect myself, begging for my balls but being told they're getting ruptured, knowing that as far as she's concerned she has a signed document releasing her form any liability and a cash incentive to do it. That was the thrill I was looking for. I gave her and extra $50 and she stomped on my balls some more until I came again before she left because I needed to drag this experience out a little longer. Honestly, not the worst ball beating I've taken. And we had a really good conversation about kinks and what we both got out of it. But I also know that I'm insane, and this type of behavior could get me castrated. I'm lucky that this and other scenarios haven't ended that way. I'm luckier still that as of a couple years ago I'm still very fertile (haven't check since but if I was okay then after over a decade of hard and regular ball-busting...). Thought I'd share this with all of you. Who else am I gonna tell? Hope you enjoyed. I think I'll lay off this particular fantasy scenario for a while.

[Nuts for Grab]

wow super sexy. I was on the edge of my seat reading that one!

[ballsareforkicking]

Yeesh dude, I was scared for your balls while reading this!

[Bblove]

I'm fine, didn't let them tie me up.  Thanks for the concern. 

[Jake e]

I agree with Nathan but I'm also legitimately worried about him after his last status. Hope it works out for the best Noah and please do give us an update.

[Nathan Mathis]

You are very lucky you had found someone with a good head on their shoulders. The scene is hot, but I would recommend talking about the castration as a role play. That way you have the hard kicks, the mindset of the fake contract, the threats, but you will keep your balls to play again. A safe word is not a bad idea either. A dom's job is to push your limits but sometimes reading those limits can be a challenge. A consensual scene can become a graphic horror very quickly if the Dom doesn't catch a subtle hint.

Have fun, indulge your fantasy, but play safe.

[JackD]

Really enjoyed this story - terrifying, but amazing 

[Harvey B]

Very intense, even a bit scary. Thanks for sharing. May-be you should keep this one, since you know she truly likes the experience but she does not really wish to rupture them. Stay safe.

[Desmond]

This is exactly what i want to do but i just don't have the balls to do it

[Steven Williams]

epic!!