Dvhour's Ballbusting Memoirs Vol. 1

[dvhour (Site Owner)]

Hello my name is dvhour, I am the creator of USBBonline and KITG. I'm an 11+ vet in the online BB community... I've had well over a hundred mild to medium to very rough consensual forms of BB experiences (spanning 5 countries)... I'm not bragging... I am just stating facts as I recount my BB memoirs... I am both humbled and thankful that I have had such an amazing string of good fortune and a chance to experience all of this.

 

Today I'm in my 30s, I do not have any children (by choice), I lead a very unconventional lifestyle and have lived with the yearning to be kicked below the belt for almost 3 decades now. Truth be told my hosiery fetish is my most prominent and dominant fetish and BB is a distant 2nd behind it. I was age 6 when a girl I had a crush on, kicked me in the balls super hard. It was traumatic, I cried, it was awkwardly beautiful and transformative. I remember being desirous, fearful and confused about the mix of feelings I was experiencing but most of all, I felt ashamed for liking it. There was no one to talk to about my fear of a ballbusts, the damages or the desires that one could feel when they saw or encountered (potential) ball busting. Even if I had someone to talk to, I still would not have shared these morbidly shame filled feelings. I was pretty messed up and torn for years with regards to the idea of being hit below the belt.

 

I did not want any part of or any kind of ballbust experience at that time and I did my damnedest to avoid any and all contact with known culprits attempting to hit below the belt, for fear that people would find out my freaky secret and expose me. It was an irrational palm sweaty fear that really upset me - it kept me constantly on guard where I would worry about colleagues, friends and family who might find out. I even thought they could read my thoughts. Actually, I still don't want people to know, but I'm much much more comfortable in my skin about the whole thing nowadays.

 

In 1997 I graduated college in the Midwest and moved from the Midwest to NYC. It was the combination of being on my own for the first time and living in NYC (one of the freakiest cities in the world…) My time in NYC gave me the knowledge that Ballbusting existed. I would go to the Adult Video Stores at 11AM, 12AM, 1AM, 2 AM… creeping in and out of the various Adult shops. I craved BB content so much that I disregarded my safety, often, by roaming seedy and questionable areas all hours of the night. It was both liberating and refreshing to me, because for the first time in my life I was connecting with a HUGE part of myself that I had been repressing for years.

 

I had my first pseudo-BB experience with a professional woman in an abandoned NYC alley-way, I paid some foolish amount and she did her business. BTW this was a stoooopid idea guys don't ever do this, cause anything could have happened to me in such a vulnerable state. After several years of buying tons and tons of femdom magazines and BB videos I eventually got my first home computer. This changed the whole ball-game (no pun intended).

 

If memory serves me correct, it was around 1999, when I discovered sites like TCLNET, Knackers, Velvet Kick, The Valkyrie stories, Hundra, Number 2, Femaledom, some bb survey sites and a handful of other BB content throughout the web. After lurking for 4 years with no concrete contributions or interactions with folks… I somehow gathered the nerve to connect with sorryimdone (a member on the TCLNET Forum) to co-create a BB website called USBBONLINE.

 

USBB was unique to the BB community... we were doing somethings no other bb site was doing at the time… we hired regular gals (not dominatrixes or professional women), we produced videos with 4, 5, 6, 7 gals at a time (as seen in this USBB PROMO CLIP) rather than the one on one domme sessions that dominated the BB video landscape... we were fully clothed - no one was dressed up in fetish gear and we billed it as a light hearted form of BB entertainment. We had these teasers with provocative BB statements the girls said during phone and email interviews and we would showcase a crop of their eyes or lips or legs to capture the imagination of the speaker… It was an absolute hit with the BB crowd and to this day one of the most effective advertising campaigns in BB history. USBB lasted from 2003 to 2004… it was and always will be one of the most magical times in my life, but it was also was one of the most troubling and problematic times in my life.

 

After the USBB site collapsed, I felt disenfranchised and angry… I saw and experienced many things that turned me off about the BB scene and I had excommunicated myself for a few years. During that time I was traveling a lot and in these travels I experienced a great many BB sessions and intimate moments. It was also during this time that I started using Google to discover non bb threads, I started watching video clips and did a ton of research on building a social media and social communities.

In October 2009 I created this site; Kicked in the Groin Social Network. Its the first social network dedicated to ball busting and cuntbusting. Its an ambitious initiative that is ever-evolving and the daily tasks to run that community along with managing the thousands of people and personalities from around the world is beyond humbling. I'm honored to be a pioneer and contributing member of the BB community, I say that with no ego attached, because I'm a down to earth kat and don't take any aspect of this fetish or the longevity of my balls and their functionality for granted.

 

I thank the pioneers who influenced me: my partner in crime Mallory here on KITG, Sorryimdone from USBBONLINE, TCLNET/Yoda-Legend, Sharon from Femaledom, Kramtoad, Hundra, Knave, Knackers, Scott from Velvet Kick, The Valkyrie stories, Hundra, Number 2, Khalid from British Bitches, Mistress Destiny Forums, David UK from Sniff that Kick, BBKat Stories, Ballbustingtube, Cali'MeanGirls, BrazilianLBs, Spiky Step, Rosanka, The Japanese site Kinkeri, that other Japanese site Tamakeri, Caligula, Eunuch Org, Goddess Kicks, Ballbusting World, Belinda & Roger, Sukeban, Fetish House, Cucciolio, Ballbusting Universe, ClubDom, Mistress Trish, Russian Ballbusting, Bronson from Brownstone and Suburban Sensations... these are just some of the producers that made an impact on me and my evolution in the BB scene from the beginning... Currently I'm proud to host and discover newer faces in the Groin Busting scene who are trailblazing like Domina NYX, WU, Joe & Kat, DHIM, A.W. and Triskel... I believe in giving credit where its due and I can honestly say that I'm indebted to all the individuals who inspired, paved the way and unknowingly helped to reshape me as a contributing member in the BB community.

 

I don't claim to have all the answers but I do have a wealth of BB knowledge, BB experience, sincere BB passion and an undying dedication to the BB community. I know what it was like for me back before my time in NYC and in the pre-BB internet years... I do not wish those growing pains on any one. I genuinely want to help people connect better with the fetish and to help improve the relations between the various male/male BB, male/female BB, male/female CB and female/female CB communities. I find it massively important that there be a sense of coexistence and support between ALL Groin Busting Communities, cause together we are more dynamic and stronger as a unit. Thank you for listening to my rant. I hope it reaches and impacts someone.

 

- Dvhour (Creator/Admin of KITG)

[dvhour (Site Owner)]

@Goalie 

Greetings sir. You ask an incredibly introspective question and I need to analyze this... hmmmm says DV as he rubs his chin and looks up to the sky... My hosiery fetish dominates all my fetishes.  I remember distinctly that I had it long before my schooling years. I have vivid memories of my moms friends and the baby sitter's hosed legs and me feeling on them (i was looked upon as an adorable pup not some pervy child i was super young I could get away with it)... Fast-forward to my schooling years... when the girl kicked me she too was wearing tights and these hard Mary Jane shoes and I think this only amplified and reinforced my hosiery lust and kinda did open my mind to ballbusting - HOWEVER - I had witnessed the girls in that same grade later that year playing a game called GET OUT OF OUR WAY OR BOOOOM!! Which was a bunch of gals would line up like Rockettes and kick with their legs walking towards boys who were taunting them. Granted they weren't aiming for balls necessarily they just wanted to hurt the boys and see them in pain. But like any accident (or maybe on purpose) a bunch of guys got kicked in the balls and after too many trips to the nurse i suppose parents or someone complained and it stopped. So that partly got me interested... A year or so later I remember being at camp and these two girls would always hang with this group of guys... I think one or two of the girls had a thing for one of them anyway... almost every time that I saw them in the distance they would be chasing the guys and kicking at their balls. IT was a BB dream in the making... anyway one day i worked up the nerve to try to hang with them once... i would not make my balls available but i would watch in awe... anyway one time I was lying on the ground and the ring leaders buddy came up to me and stepped on my package... i don't remember pain but i got a tingling and giggled and she looked at me in disgust and stopped.... this kinda reinforced my discomfort with people finding out so that ended that... At any rate I think my exposure to it at a young age made my interest strong and had the girl not kicked me I probably would have developed anyway.

The fact that it was traumatic is that it hurt so much and it wasn't expected... it was from a girl that I had a crush on and I was sure she was gonna playfully chase me and give me some attention not hurt me and laugh at my pure pain.  I was sad and angry more than joyful at the experience I suppose but as time moved on I began to fantasize about it more and more. And yes I will post the story someday in the blog. :) 

@Kochier

Actually Kochier I'm thinking I might start posting them here on this site and charging a fee. But Thats something I'm working out now. But thank you for your support brother i appreciate it. 

[Goalie]

Hey DV. A couple of questions here.

Who was that girl and why did she kick you ?  It sounds  like a story worth telling :)

Was that incident the absolute onset of the fetish in you or did you have any thoughts about it prior to that ?

Also, you referred to it as "traumatic" - does that mean you believe you may have never developed the fetish had it not been for it ?

Thanks.