I guess this is how it's gunna be. It's time for me to say goodbye.

[this person]

There's less than a handful of people on this site I've grown quite close with, and it pains me to sever ties with them (because really, where else would we talk, unless you'd like to reach out and exchange Tumblr URLS or something) but it's obvious that this is the direction I have to take.

I haven't been active on this site for some time now. It's always been a great place to come, to share stories, to chat with like-minded people and know I'm not alone. But lately, things have changed for me.

I have been struggling with my gender identity for quite awhile now, consciously for about a year, but - cliche as it may sound - looking back there have always been tells and experiences leading to this. I began identifying as non-binary just over a year ago (that is, neither male nor female) and even before then have felt a pull toward the feminine end of the spectrum. I did my research and educated myself to better understand my struggle and what the outcome may or may not be, and at the end of April I came out to the world as a trans woman. I began taking hormone replacement therapy mid-May, and am in the legal process of getting all my information and credentials changed. It is without a doubt one of the best decisions I have made for myself; I know it will be hard sometimes, but it will be worth it.

I identify as asexual, though sex and BB are in slightly different ballparks - no pun intended - and I'm still physically attracted to all genders. That being said, my perspective has shifted regarding BB. I've come to realise I may or may not want to give it, but it isn't something I enjoy receiving anymore unless I'm in the absolute right mindset for it, which has only happened once since beginning HRT. (I know, I know, a woman with balls? BLASPHEMY) I don't have a great deal of dysphoria regarding the lower region - and am entirely undecided on the future possibility of bottom surgery - but I want to be comfortable in what I enjoy, in a safe environment.

I am sad to say that I no longer feel this site provides me with a safe environment. I'm coming out because I want to be entirely open about who I am, but let's be real: I can't even post a photodiary on Tumblr to track my HRT progress without attracting unwanted attention from fetish blogs, and with as much harassment as the cis women endure on this site, it's obvious to me KITG is not a safe or comfortable place for me anymore. I'd rather not deal with any harassment if I can avoid it, and it would be too much of a hassle to report every single offender to DV and/or Mallory.

Speaking of DV and Mallory, I'm still waiting on your replies, by the way. I confided my story and my total trust in you. I poured my heart out into a message that I sent you a month ago. At least give me the courtesy of acknowledging that you've read it.

So I guess now's the time for acknowledgments of my own:

DV and Mal, thank you for creating and running this website. Just because it isn't home to me anymore, doesn't mean I don't appreciate everything it's done for me in the past. You're making a lot of people feel more at peace with who they are. Keep doing what you do.

Big thanks to the Katkatbbsaverz crew - you two are the reason I looked into this website in the first place.

Knave and Smoo, you are the best friends I've made on this site by far. Knave, your kind words and continued support will always have a place in my heart. Smoo, I'll never get tired of our conversations. You both will surely be missed. Feel free to inbox me and I'll be happy to find a way to keep in touch.

All of the amateur and professional video stars, new and old, keep up the wonderful work. I hope your passion never fades.

Lastly, thanks to everyone who's taking the time to actually read this. If you got through this whole post without judging or oversexualizing me, congratulations. You, dear reader, are capable of basic human decency. Hold onto that for dear life.

Take care of yourselves. And your balls.

--TP

[Smoo]

*waves lob claw*  :)

[JackD]

Hey TP, I never knew you or your story, but we all have a journey and it sounds like you least know which way yours is going. So many people don't even get that far. Good luck and fair winds.

[charlotte sweeper]

Good luck with everything. We've never talked but I'm sorry you've had people be cruel to you here. One day hopefully people will be more understanding and willing to look at the inside of a person.

[Chefda]

I also never knew you or your story, and it saddens me that there are people here (or anywhere) that feel they have the right to hurt you. I hope that things improve for you. Good luck and farewell. =)

[zarko]

damn :( i only talked with you for a bit but you were a great person. drop a line occasionally if you come back!

[CC]

I've had very few interactions with you over the years.  You've always seemed like a very chill person.  I'm sorry that this isn't a safe or comfortable place for you anymore, and I wish you the best.

[david armstrong]

good luck hope you find what you desire

everyone deserve happiness

adios

[this person]

I decided to pop in on a whim to see how the site was doing.

Thanks for the well wishes, everyone; I've dealt with a lot of nonsense in the real world as well as the 'virtual' world, but things are progressing pretty well and your encouraging words mean a lot.

DV and Mal, I'm fucking disappointed. I was at a really rough point in my life and I looked to you - people I admired and looked up to - for support, for encouragement, for SOMETHING. Three months have gone by without a word. Glad to know I was a valued member of your community.